Where to go from here.

Today I took my last finals of my undergraduate career. Let me rewind, I took my last actual test with multiple-choice questions and open-ended questions of my undergraduate career. I still have to do a presentation on Thursday with my advertising "mini-agency/group."  It's a bit bittersweet to have to say good-bye to the people that I've spent the past 5 years learning with and from.

I've always wanted out of college, not that I didn't enjoy it, I really did/do. After changing my original major and then trying to settle on a certain minor, I was beyond ready to graduate. I always thought I would graduate in 4 years, no such luck. I love academia, it's not for some people but it is for me. I've always enjoyed learning daily, expanding my mind, meeting new people, and of course reading. Did I like reading assigned material all the time? heck no! I would sometime put it off until the last minute, but it would get done. I've spent the better part of the year focusing on passing my classes, making sure I had enough credit hours (which I happen to have too many, I'm actually a few classes off from getting a major in both PR and French.)

Now here I am, wondering what in the world am I going to do after graduation. I graduate THIS SATURDAY. It's 4 days away at 7pm. Being at home and being a bum is not going to cut it nor is it an option. I'm never been much of lazy person to begin with. I'm actually a morning person and night person, not much a 1pm-3pm person, why? I've never figured it out but I tend to slow down between those hours.

I've constantly wondered and imagined what life after graduation would be like, now my life is basically a giant question mark! I don't know what's going to happen, what I'm going to do, although I do know I'm applying to jobs like everywhere and hoping to God that I'm employed by January. I've never had so much uncertainty in my life since I changed my major at the end of my first semester in college. It's always been school, school, school, since kindergarten. I will no longer have the luxury of laying around the house because it's "winter break" , "spring break", or "summer break". I stop living my life in terms of semesters, but rather actual months, days, hours, minutes, seconds.

A friend of mine told me to take day by day and enjoy it as much as possible. Many other have agreed. I like structure in my life. I need to have the next step, always have, so I guess now is the time to go by the flow. Even though it stresses the hell out of me. I may or may not have freaked out about this whole subject yesterday. A wise person sent me a bible verse that helped put hope and ease to my anxiety of post graduation.
"You are the light of the world. A city set in a mountain cannot be hidden."-Mathew 5:14

Until next time,
Felipa xoxo

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